Struggling to remain Sane

No body knows what it’s like at my end;
They see only what they want, to pretend
That all is peachy; and everything is fine.
They just don’t get this depression of mine.

They term me a waste of space –
Unable to fit in or find my place.
Behind my vacant eyes I hide my dreams
Just as the darkness of night covers my screams.

My thoughts flitter-flutter with nowhere to go.
I can’t understand my unease; why am I feeling so
Lost and lonely when surrounded by all?
Who will get me? Whom can I call?

I have spent years with nothing to show.
A bland life at best, the lowest of low.
I’m scared that one day I’ll wake up to find
That this is reality. It’s not just in my mind.

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10 thoughts on “Struggling to remain Sane

  1. Funnily enough, your title depicts the thoughts I had almost throughout yesterday. Like I always say, “you’re your own person”, only you can understand yourself completely but sometimes even that proves really difficult.
    Great piece.

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  2. Like Chris, I don’t know what depression feels like. I did a long, long time ago and tried to commit suicide. There was no “light at the end of the tunnel” at that time. So I invented a light, my own kind of “reason for being” which doesn’t have to explain why I’m here, or why things are the way they are, but gives me a purpose. I live for that purpose and if I feel overwhelmed with bad news, losses, or global chaos, I can always lose myself in my own purpose, dependent upon no one but me. That’s how I do it, anyway. I’m following your blog now, see what else you have to share. Take care o’ you!

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